15th of May. Today the Flower moon did not make herself appear as she was supposed to. Flower moon, the full moon of May, the month of flowers when Spring is at its peak. Today the Flower moon is obscured behind a thick, black layer of rain clouds so I cannot admire her beauty. There is supposed to have an eclipse. So ironic. I wished to see how she goes through all the phases of an eclipse, changing her colour to honey gold, orange and blood red but here I am watching a black and blank sky. The atmosphere is cool. Almost cold. The ground is damp and rain-soaked. The air is dense with the fragrance of incense that is wafting from the temple and the rhythmic chants are soothing. I can see the Vesak lanterns like small light dots in the distance. But the sky is empty.
It is ok to go absent in your darkest moments. No matter how festive the world around, you are allowed to take a break. Just like the flower moon did today. And it is perfectly alright.
Until we meet under the Strawberry moon.